some of you may have realised by now that i can be one incredibly fearful individual. i completely admire and respect those of you who 'seem' to flow through life without appearing to be scared. no doubt, like me, everyone is scared of something or at some stage and what i see is not what is underneath. me, i seem to have lived with fear of something for all my adult life. some of it fairly nebulous stuff to be scared off, some just a little 'nibble at the edges of my soul' unease. but there have been many times when i have reached almost complete paralysis. like today when i left home 30 minutes later and was confronted with bumper to bumper peak hour traffic for a 45 minute commute to work (only the third time i've done this trip), only to have to turn around almost immediately and come home in the absolute peak of peak hour because my daughter was very ill and needed a lift to the doctor. there have been instances where i have been at 'throw-up at the mere thought' stage as well. but, on the other hand - chuck me on a stage in front of 1000 people or more at a major international conference, and i'll spruik along quite merrily.... what i started doing a couple of years ago was challenge a list of goals - most of which i realised 1 year after writing them down were things that scared the daylights out of me. after this morning, i've been thinking - why do i put myself through this? does everyone else absolutely hate being so scared of things that they literally can't move? not just occassionally but almost every day? so, it's got me wondering - what do you do when you get really scared of something?