Hi Everyone, Long time lurker first time poster besides the welcome post. I grew up riding trail bikes then in my Late twenties I bought a scooter , it wasn't fast enough so I just went and bought a bigger bike, I never bothered about a license and after being done 3 times I just got rid of it. Now the crux of my problem is after the long ten or so years away I started to long for a bike again, but this time I did it properly, doing courses and also getting my License. When I rode before I had zero worries I would ride like the wind full of confidence(false) and never bothered with gear or anything (foolishly). Now I am geared to the max, Ive watched all theses videos of crashes (that fatal one too) and all things to avoid etc. I realised I was doing many things wrong and its a wonder I never died in the past But now It seems all my confidence has been eroded and I am just way safety conscious all the time. Constantly on the lookout for what can kill me and almost fearful when on the bike? Im not sure how this change came over me but one minute ill be starting to enjoy the ride again and my mind will start chastising me "get on the ball man, keep your mind on the job, watch for danger , watch for danger. I feel like im so focused now on not dieing im going to bring it upon myself. Has anyone ever gone through this type of thing before? my wife says it might be an age thing where perhaps I value my life a bit more now and im not prepared to take risks I once was?