because i don't know any of you that well, and i see a couple of depressive threads a week (lol) i thought i'd spill the beans on whats eating me at the moment. girls (DUH!!!) isn't it always? heh it's not the usual GF pissed me off, girls are hard to read, girls are bitches etc etc type of rant. my problem is that apart from 1 girl, i've never been able to hold a relationship past a couple of weeks. i think 2 is my record (as i said, apart from 1 girl) and it's my problem, not theirs. i'm not trying to sound arrogant, and i'm far from arrogant, but i'll try and give you the info.. from what i've been told, i'm fairly good looking (in a boyish kinda way), and apparently i'm great to be around, personality wise etc. i think it could be that i'm too fussy. too picky with my girls. at the start, my intentions are uncommon for 'blokie blokes' - i WANT relationship, i WANT romance, i WANT hugs and compasion and companionship and all that shit. it even sounds queer writing it - eep! but, after about a week, i start to look at the girl in a different way, seeing what i don't like about her, and not really wanting to see her. i still don't want to hurt her, so i end up just being a dickhead until she breaks up with me. generally i'll just not call her, not answer her calls, then apologise and say i've been really busy - and keep doing that until she breaks up with me. some people say it's 'fear of commitment' - but how can that be - if i want it? lol. can i still fear it deep down and that causes me to disassociate myself with my girlfriend? some people say my standards are too high, and i care too much what other people think - too true.. but i don't want to change it.. majority of my girls are jaw droppers, and people tend to think glamours have bad personalitys - some of them can be dopey.. but thats not what i pick up on.. i pick up on being lazy, having a un-trimmed eyebrows, bad habits, bad mannerisms, foul language. i know, i know.. i'm a cauvenistic pig (spelling, sorry.) but whats wrong with wanting Miss Perfect? lol another problem is that i don't meet alot of girls.. i goto parties once in a blue moon.. and majority of the time, i'll look for the cutiest girl, end up getting her, and 2 weeks later i cause her to break up with me - and my 'act' is over. oh, i forgot to mention - i act like the worlds best gentleman for those 2 weeks. i'd like to be all the time, but i'm not, i don't think. then, theres those who say 'the sex always ruins it' - well, to them all i can tell you is that my last GF was a virgin when i was with her. (my first virgin, lucky i didn't end up having sex with her - i'd be a dead man.) so what do i do? how do i fix it, find Miss Perfect, settle down, and have kids! i'm 20 now... only 3 years until my planned age to have kids. and i want those 3 years to get to know the mother of my children.