Whelp that was interesting.
Ride with five turned to ride with ten, that was cool. Started of in good spirits and was really looking forward to it.
By the second stop I wanted to die in a hole I was so embarrassed. Failed in front of everybody at a hill start and was the slowest person in the group. I was trying my hardest not to succumb to the pressure of speeding but I just had to let everyone go on ahead and keep putting along.
Stopped for a coffee and nibble and some of the group were still together, all at the same cafe. Hardly said anything to anyone. I was VERY keen to get home.
Second stage felt much better about it and blasted some very nice corners on surprisingly dry roads (my definition of blasting). I was mentally and emotionally in a ditch and just thought, stuff it. Ride now cry later. Now that I'm home I am gonna wind down and think about my riding. I think I've decided on what type of bike I want to upgrade to when I get my Rs next year.
No more group rides for me just yet. I don't have the experience to make that fun. I am so fried.